文|清韻
我是一朵半途而廢的花，絕望之后依然等待開放。
圖|網絡
最近聽了The Secret of Garden《秘密花園》，準確來說，這是一本兒童文學。但正因為是寫給孩子看的故事，更覺得純粹而簡單。
一個從小孤傲叛逆頤指氣使長得也不算漂亮的小女孩Mary，有官員父親和美麗母親，可惜，卻從來不被任何人關心。直到父母因傳染病去世，仆人們相繼離開，只剩下被遺忘的她。
后來她被帶到了父母認識的英國人家中，從小過慣衣食無憂生活的她，討厭他們家中的雜亂和吵鬧的小孩。再后來，她坐船去了在約克郡的叔叔Mr.?Craven家。他很有錢，有大大的城堡，只是大多數門都被鎖著。他還駝著背，貌似并不關心任何人，只因心門緊鎖，失去了摯愛的妻子。
來到約克遜的Mary第一次見到了荒原（moor），不了解時對其心生恐懼，春天到了卻能見到絕佳的景色。Mary沒有了自己的仆人，開始得自己穿衣打扮，好像忽然就明白了沒有什么是理所應當，竟自立、可愛起來。
去花園游玩時，她和園丁攀談，向來嚴肅而不茍言笑的園丁看到知更鳥飛來時，立刻微笑起來。Mary忽然就覺得，人微笑的時候看起來美好得多。老人說：“園子里沒有別的知更鳥，這只知更鳥覺得有點孤獨。”Mary也第一次黯然神傷道“我也很孤獨”。知更鳥對著她歌唱，她問小鳥能否成為她的朋友，溫柔至極。
再后來，Mary認識了仆人Martha的弟弟Dicken，一個聽懂動物的言語和他們交流的人。在知更鳥的帶領下，他們發現了被Mr.?Craven封鎖的秘密花園。他們播種，澆水，渴望春天看到滿花盛開。Mary后來在夜里聽到了一個男孩的哭聲，循其聲，發現了同樣和曾經的他一樣孤獨叛逆暴脾氣的表弟，Mr.?Craven的兒子Colin。他和父親一樣駝背，無法走路，甚至以為自己活不長了。因母親在生他的時候去世了，他父親從來不去看他，因為怕想起他母親。
直到有了Mary為伴，Mary和Dicken給了他極大的鼓舞，Colin在秘密花園呼吸著春天最美的氣息，但他仍懷疑自己能不能走路和活下去。直到園丁看到他們，說他是那個駝背的男孩，他生氣得站了起來。后來，Colin像正常男孩一樣走路、奔跑，見證著秘密花園從春天到初夏的所有變化。
他堅信是秘密花園賦予他的魔法，他問Ms.?Sowerby是否相信魔法，她答：“相信，只是每個人都給它起了個不同的名字，它使陽光照耀，種子生長，同樣也使你健康。”
最后，Mr.?Craven見到了活蹦亂跳的Colin。所有人幸福地生活在一起。
幾點感受：
大自然永遠是最治愈人的，無論身心。正如那句話所說，“世界上最美好的東西都是免費的”，如空氣如陽光如自然景觀，這些上蒼賦予的美，是無論你處于怎樣的境況都擁有的。
驕傲孤獨跋扈的面孔下也會住著溫柔可愛的靈魂，那最柔軟美好的一面，恰恰是需要人去發掘的。這個人，可以是自己的恍然大悟、豁然開朗，也可以是獨立誠摯的別人，如父母，如兄長，如老師，再如前輩，等等等等。
也許我們都曾是那個相當自我、自私、壞脾氣的瑪麗，可你總得學著長大。每個人都可以被治愈。愿你也被治愈，無論如今境況如何。
前段時間聽寫了The?Secret?of?Garden的第一章，分享于你:
Chapter?1?Little?Miss?Mary
Nobody?seemed?to?care?about?Mary.?She?was?born?in?India,?where?her?father?was?a?British?official.?He?was?busy?with?his?work?and?her?mother?who?was?very?beautiful?spend?all?her?time?going?to?parties.?So?an?Indian?women,?Kamala,?was?paid?to?take?care?of?the?little?girl.?Mary?was?not?a?pretty?child.?She?had?a?thin?angry?face?and?thin?yellow?hair.?She?was?always?giving?orders?to?Kamala,?who?had?to?obey.?Mary?never?thought?of?other?people?but?only?of?herself.?In?fact,?she?was?a?very?selfish,?disagreeable and bad-tempered little girl.
One very hot morning, when she was about nine?years?old,?she?woke?up?and?saw?that?instead?of?Kamala?there?was?a?different?Indian?servant?by?her?bed.?“What?are?you?doing?here?”?she?asked?crossly.?“Go?away!?And?sent?Kamala?to?me?at?once!”?The?woman?looked?afraid.?“I’m?sorry.?Miss Mary, she-she-she?can’t?come!”?Something?strange?was?happening?that?day.?Some?of?the?house?servants?were?missing?and?everybody?looked?frightened.?But?nobody?told?Mary?anything,?and?Kamala?still?did?not?come.?So?at?last?Mary?went?out?into?the?garden?and?play?by?herself?under?the?tree.?She?pretended?she?was?making?her?own?flower?garden,?and?picked?large?red?flowers?to?push?into?the?ground.?All?the?time?she?was?saying?crossly?to?herself.?“I?hate?Kamala!?I’ll?hit?her?when?she?comes?back! ”
Just?then?she?saw?her?mother?come?into?the?garden?with?a?young?Englishman.?They?did?not?notice?the?child,?who?listened?to?their?conversation.
“It’s?very?bad,?is?it?”?her?mother?asked?the?young?man?in?a?worried?voice.
“Very?bad,”?he?answered?seriously.?“People?are?dying?like?flies.?It’s?dangerous?to?stay?in?this?town.”?“You?should?go?to?the?hills,?where?there’s?no?disease.”
“Oh,?I?know!?“she?cried.?“We?must?leave?soon!”
Suddenly?they?heard?loud?cries?coming?from?the?servants’?room,?at?the?side?of?the?house.?“What’s?happened?”?cried?Mary’s?mother?wildly.
“I?think?one?of?your?servants?has?just?died.”
“You?didn’t?tell?me?the?disease?is?here,?in?your?house!”
“I?didn’t?know!”?she?screamed.?“Quick,?come?with?me!”?And?together?they?ran?into?the?house.
Now?Mary?understood?what?was?wrong.?The?terrible?disease?had?already?killed?many?people?in?the?town,?and?in?all?the?houses,?people?were?dying.?In?Marry’s?house,?it?was?Kamala?who?had?just?died.?Later?that?day?3?more?servants?died?there.?All?through?the?night?and?the?next?day,?people?ran?in?and?out?of?the?house,?shouting?and?crying.
Nobody?thought?of?Mary.?She?hid?in?her?bedroom,?frightened?by?the?strange?and?terrible?sounds?that?she?heard?around?her.?Sometimes?she?cried?and?sometimes?she?slept.?When?she?woke?the?next?day,?the?house?was?silent.?“Perhaps?the?disease?has?gone,”?she?thought,?“And?everybody?is?well?again.”?I?wonder?who?will?take?care?of?me?instead?of?Kamala.?Why?doesn’t?someone?bring?me?some?food??It’s?strange?the?house?is?so?quiet. But?just?then?she?heard?men’s?voices?in?the?hall.
“How?sad!”?said?one.?“That?beautiful?woman!”?“There?was?a?child?too,?wasn’t?there?”?said?the?other.?“Although?none?of?us?ever?saw?her.”?Mary?was?standing?in?the?middle?of?her?room?when?they?opened?the?door?a?few?minutes?later.?The?two?men?jumped?back?in?a?surprise.?“My?name?is?Mary?Lennox,”?she?said?crossly.?“I?was?asleep?when?everyone?else?was?ill,?and?now?I’m?hungry.”
“It’s?the?child,?the?one?nobody?ever?saw!”?said?the?older?man?to?the?other.?“They’ve?all?forgotten?her!”
“Why?was?I?forgotten?”?asked?Mary?angrily.?“Why?has?nobody?come?to?take?care?of?me?”
The?younger?man?looked?at?her?very?sadly.?“Poor?child!”?he?said.?“You?see,?there’s?nobody?left?alive?in?the?house.?So?nobody?can?come.”
In?this?strange?and?sudden?way?Mary?learnt?that?both?her?mother?and?her?father?had?died.?The?few?servants?who?had?not?died?had?run?away?in?the?night.?No?one?had?remembered?little?Miss?Mary.?She?was?all?alone.
Because?she?had?never?known?her?parents?well,?she?did?not?miss?them?at?all.?She?only?thought?of?herself,?as?she?had?always?done.
“Wheere?will?I?live?”?she?wondered.?“I?hope?I’ll?stay?with?people?who’ll?let?me?do?what?I?want.”
At?first?she?was?taken?to?an?English?family?who?had?known?her?parents.?She?hated?their?untidy?house?and?noisy?children?and?preferred?playing?by?herself?in?the?garden.?One?day,?she?was?playing?her?favorite?game,?pretending?to?make?a?garden,?when?one?of?the?children,?Basil?offered?to?help.?“Go?away!”?cried?Mary.?“I?don’t?want?your?help.”?For?a?moment,?Basil?looked?angry?and?then?he?began?to?laugh.?He?dance?round?and?round?Mary,?and?sang?a?funny?little?song?about?Miss?Mary?and?her?stupid?flowers.?This?made?Mary?very?cross?indeed.?No?one?had?ever?laughed?at?her?so?unkindly.?”You’re?going?home?soon,”?said?Basil.?“And?we’re?all?very?pleased?you’re?leaving.”
“I’m?pleased?too,”?replied?Mary.?“But?where’s?home?”
“You’re?stupid?if?you?don’t?know?that!”?laughed?Basil.?“England,?of?course!?You’re?going?to?live?with?your?uncle,?Mr?Archibald?Graven.”
“I’ve?never?heard?of?him,”?said?Mary?coldly.
“But?I?know?about?him?because?I?heard?father?and?mother?talking,”?said?Basil.?“He?lives?in?a?big?lonely?old?house?and?has?no?friends?because?he’s?so?bad-tempered.?He’s?got?a?crooked?back?and?he’s?horrid!”
“I?don’t?believe?you!”?cried?Mary.
But?the?next?day?Basil’s?parents?explained?that?she?was?going?to?live?with?her?uncle?in?Yorkshire,?in?the?north?of?England.?Mary?looked?bored?and?cross?and?said?nothing.?After?the?long?sea?journey,?she?was?met?in?London?by?Mr?Craven’s?housekeeper,?Mrs?Medlock.?Together?they?travelled?north?by?train.?Mrs?Medlock?was?a?large?woman,?with?a?very?red?face?and?bright?black?eyes.?Mary?did?not?like?her,?but?that?was?not?surpring,?because?she?did?not?usually?like?people.?Mrs?Medlock?didn’t?like?Mary?either.?“What?a?disagreeable?child!”?thought?the?housekeeper.?“But?perhaps?I?should?talk?to?her.”
“I?can?tell?you?a?bit?about?your?uncle?if?you?like,”?she?said?aloud.?“He?lives?in?a
big?old?house,?a?long?way?from?anywhere.?There?are?nearly?a?hundred?rooms,?but?most?of?them?are?shut?and?locked.?There’s?a?big?park?around?the?house,?and?all?kinds?of?gardens.?Well,?what?do?you?think?of?that?”
“Nothing!”?replied?Mary.?“That?doesn’t?matter?to?me.”
Mrs.?Medlock?laughed,?“You?ha-ha?little?girl,?well,?if?you?don’t?care,?Mr.?Craven?doesn’t?either.?He?never?spends?time?on?anyone.?He’s?got?a?crooked?back.?You?see,?and?although?he’s?always?been?rich,?he?was?never?really?happy?until?he?married.”
“Married?”?repeated?Mary?in?surprise.
“Yes,?he?married?a?sweet?pretty?girl?and?he?loved?her?deeply.?So?when?she?died,”
“Oh,?did?she?die?”?asked?Mary,?interested.
“Yes,?she?did.?And?now?he?doesn’t?care?about?anybody.?If?he’s?at?home,?he?stays?in?his?room?and?sees?nobody.?He?won’t?want?to?see?you.?So?you?must?stay?out?of?his?way?and?do?what?you’re?told.”
Mary?stared?out?the?train?window?at?the?grey?sky?and?the?rain.?She?was?not?looking?forward?to?life?at?her?uncle’s?house.?The?train?journey?lasted?all?day?and?it?was?dark?when?they?arrived?at?the?station.?Then?there?was?a?long?drive?to?get?to?the?house.?It?was?a?cold?windy?night?and?it?was?raining?heavily.?After?a?while,?Mary?began?to?hear?a?strange?wild?noise.?She?looked?out?of?the?window?but?could?see?nothing?except?the?darkness.
“What’s?that?noise?”?she?asked?Mrs.?Medlock.?“It’s-It’s?not?the?sea,?is?it?”
“No,?that’s?the?moor.?It’s?the?sound?the?wind?makes,?blowing?across?the?moor.”
“What?is?a?moor?”
“It’s?just?miles?and?miles?of?wildland,?with?no?trees?or?houses.?Your?uncle’s?house?is?right?on?the?edge?of?the?moor.”
Mary?listened?to?the?strange?frightening?sound.?“I?don’t?like?it,”?she?thought.?“I?don’t?like?it.”?She?looked?more?disagreeable?than?ever.
愿你也被治愈
心底的花園，芳香茂盛
