? ? It was in his early ages when he wrote that "People are used to pray. They pray for a better life, and pray the god to give them what they want. However, they become paralyzed by their life, and paralyzed by reality, pursuing what is in their capacity to gain, without an effort to pursue what they are destined to pursue-- the treasure given by the god, and their lives become the habitat of negativity, a careerist who attempts to occupy everyone's mind. But somehow, the boy realized that he is too, becomes the captive of reality, becomes whom he disdained, and becomes who almost lost the precious treasure from the god.
? ? "When one attempts to gain something, something else must be sacrificed." He has been known about this for quite a while: if he wants to be the spiritual and moral flower in this corrupted world, wealthy and power must be sacrificed; if he wants to protect something instead of being protected, his time for playing must be canceled so that he could train himself to be more powerful enough. He realized, everything is about a choice, and the choice must be subjective so that the world could be balanced.
? ? He started making choices, choices about his future, and choices of what kind of man he wants to be. But his life is just like a boat. When the storm comes, he didn't resist, but instead, he changed the direction which is going to a different destination, to cater the wind. Then when the captain asked him how about the original orientation, he would try his best to convince himself that this destination is also right and it will take him to the right place where he likes. And when the storm comes again, he makes a choice again, and convinces himself again, and then change the direction again. But there always be a pain when he changes the direction, the pain of pity that he would never gain the benefits from the original destination. The pain that tortures him again and again, until he gets used to it, and at that time, he becomes, unconsciously, a prisoner of reality. But he is even worse, while other prisoners don't realize that they are in the prison, he does, but he still afraid of escaping the prison. He is afraid of being alone if he gets out, and afraid of what is going to happen if he is out.
? ? He is not and never an idiot, but the only thing he lacks is a little courage, courage that could lead him out of the prison, to pursue what the god asks him to? achieve.
? ? He once asked his friends and his families, that why should people choose to be tortured in somewhere their family is far away from him, and where he needs to abandon everything in the past to accept a new life? At that time, no one could answer. But apparently, he has found an answer for himself: it is because there are things that he is destined to pursue.
? 在他的年少時(shí)期，他曾寫過這樣的話：人們無時(shí)無刻的祈愿著，祈愿著更好的生活，祈愿著神明能賜予他們想要的東西。所有人都被生活所麻醉了，他們不停的祈愿著他們無法達(dá)到的東西，不停的追尋者在他們能力范圍內(nèi)的東西，卻從未努力追尋過神所賜予他們的寶藏。神將這份寶物埋藏在人的內(nèi)心，當(dāng)他們能審視自我之時(shí)，將會(huì)發(fā)掘它，這份寶藏不是財(cái)富，也不是精神，神只是給了人們一種所謂的“所追尋的東西”。但不是是從何而來的啟示，當(dāng)他發(fā)現(xiàn)，他自己也即將成為現(xiàn)實(shí)的傀儡，一個(gè)被過去的自己鄙視的人，一個(gè)即將丟失這份寶物的人。
? “當(dāng)一個(gè)人想要得到什么東西的時(shí)候，他必將丟失另一個(gè)”，他早已明白了這個(gè)道理：如果他想在這渾濁不堪的社會(huì)里成為道德與精神的花多，財(cái)富與權(quán)利必將被犧牲，如果他想要保護(hù)他人，而不是在避風(fēng)港里茍活一生，他必將愉悅玩耍的時(shí)間舍棄掉，來訓(xùn)練他自己，讓他變得更加強(qiáng)大。他早已明白，所有的東西只是一個(gè)選擇而已，而選擇必是一個(gè)主觀的東西來維持世界的平衡。
? 他開始做出各種各樣的選擇，關(guān)于他未來的選擇，也有關(guān)于他想成為哪種人的選擇。但他的人生就如同帆船一般，在暴風(fēng)雨來臨之際，他并沒有選擇抵抗并前進(jìn)，而選擇了迎風(fēng)而行，調(diào)轉(zhuǎn)方向，駛向另外一個(gè)終點(diǎn)。當(dāng)船長問他為什么舍棄掉一開始所計(jì)劃的方向和終點(diǎn)時(shí)，他總會(huì)全力說服自己，說服自己另一個(gè)終點(diǎn)也是對的，也是一個(gè)他所認(rèn)同的地方。當(dāng)下一場暴風(fēng)雨來臨時(shí)，他再一次選擇，再一次說服自己，也再一次改變所要行駛的終點(diǎn)。但在改變行程的同時(shí)，總會(huì)有痛苦伴隨著他，一種叫做遺憾的痛苦，他無法得到在最開始確定的那個(gè)終點(diǎn)的利益。隨著他做出改變航道的選擇，這種痛苦就一直伴隨著他，直到他習(xí)慣這種痛苦，但在這個(gè)時(shí)候，他已經(jīng)，雖然自己并不知曉，變成了現(xiàn)實(shí)的囚徒。但他卻比囚徒更加的應(yīng)該被憎恨，其他的囚徒們并不知曉自己生活在籠子里，而他，雖然已已經(jīng)看到了籠子的輪廓，但他卻不敢飛出籠子，他畏懼著，畏懼著飛出籠子之后他將孤身一人，他也害怕著在飛出籠子后所要經(jīng)歷的事情。
? ? 他不是一個(gè)被現(xiàn)實(shí)操控的白癡，他所缺乏的僅僅是一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)勇氣，一點(diǎn)點(diǎn)能讓他飛出籠子追尋那神所留給他的寶藏的勇氣。
? ? ? 他曾問過其他人，為什么要選擇去一個(gè)人生地不熟的地方，離開家人，離開一切可以被稱為溫暖的地方孤身一人去異地？沒有人能回答他，但現(xiàn)在，他卻為自己找到了答案：因?yàn)樵谒睦镉兄凶⒍ㄒ穼さ臇|西。
