Having been graduated from college for amost one year, I think I am just wandering around the world like a corpse, which seems as if a loser. Because I am not really seeing the world with my eyes open or my mind kind. At first, I just want to see this big world simply, but now I am trapped in without a way to get out. I feel desprate and depressed sometimes as I see more. I find there are many things I know but can't accept.
Life is various. But you just can choose one kind of life style and go on. I don't have many life experiences except for study experiences, which always suddenly make me feel dreary and desolated. After knowing this life truth, I know I just have at most another 5 years to pursue the life I want---to see the world physically and mentally. In fact, I already have 2 years of free time.
Teaching as a practicer----just like the feeling of first love
It was on 21th Mar 2015 when I got a chance to leave college and started a new study experience as an English teacher in Number Seventh Middle School in Xinfeng county. To be honest, I was frightened at the begining and afraid that I can't hold or teach them well. As a girl who?was only 19 years old. My "three values" were not shaped completely by that time. Many things even I couldn't differ from which is right or wrong and I didn't want to lead my students into a weird direction, which I would regret all my life. I love them but didn't know how to express. They are innocent and clever though some also very naughty. I don't remenber what I had taught them during that semester. All my memory are their happy and young faces as well as the last day I left there. Young as I was, I didn't realize that I had made a promise to them, which I may never achieve it. I want to say sorry so I delivered a box of candy to marry chrismas to them. Just like the feeling of first love, I just can't help remenbering them from time to time. I hope them all thebest.
Working as a formal employee---a sense of home and achievement but with disatifaction
A good begining makes half success! I have wanted to cherish this chance and planed to work at least three years as my first job. At first, I just felt exhausted and desprated everyday since the work there is really annoying and difficult sometimes. You just feel helpless when a trouble comes to you. Colleagues are too busy to assist you. All you can do is to lower your head and keep asking without feeling ashamed or disturbed. But I always cheer myself up when time is hard. Luckily, my responsible behavior got response after6 months. I got an opportunity to enter another more professional work position, which I stayed for4 months. The reason I retired is thatI just felt bored and life was too dull and all filled with work. I thought I should have a very richful young life after a week hard working. Obviously, Living in such desolated industrious location, I have no chance to be. Therefore, I left there with a little irrisponsibility and ended my first career as a trade assistent. Unitil now, Iam grateful to leaders there. Though I had overworked more than 3 months during the whole 10 months, my leader never rest or left me alone when I had extra work to do. I think maybe that's a right working attitude.
Returnig back to be a teacher in an educational institution---you can' t believe what you see but what you feel
I was borned in JiuJiang, but I don't know its salary level unitil this year 2017. With 2 major factors, I decided to stay at my hometown. Seeing parents become older and older year by year, I suddenly realized that it had been years for me to accompany my parents. So I want to stay beside my parents this year and offer helps to them as many as I could. That's the first factor and I should do sthto return them. However, the second reason is because I want to go back to college again, so I decided to take part in the graduate examination at theend of this year, which means I need time to read books and do test exercises. I think this job is suitable for me from the point ofschedule andcharacter. Of course, I hope no more students will come in, or it would be a burden for me! However, at present, I didn't feel any troublesome from work but gossips between colleagues in this company. It's so terrible that make me have the idea of getting away here. The most annoying thing for me is to say sth. bad behind others. It's just a waste of time and makes no sense. I hate this kind of office atmosphere! Teaching is very holy event in my belief, so i will not leave here before students in my hand having passed the college entrance examination. Even in a desperate situation, one can't lose his/ her trust! Anyway, life is still going on and as a member of here, I should believe this company will get better!
I am just wandering around the world.
I hope I can be a turly man who is wandering around the world one day!
