昨天跑完步真是太累了...大概早上10點才起來...
來的路上，我腦袋里其實就一直在想，我們現在的關系，到底算什么呢？
其實，我對于我的想法考慮的很清楚....如果你還真的真的想和我繼續走下去，只要你一句話，我就可以很乖地在變成你心愛的那個小哥哥...
如果你不想和我繼續走下去了，想分開了，那么好...我會決絕地再也不去找你，甚至是刪掉你所有的聯系方式，任它在想念，在孤單，也絕不回頭..
如果你真的只是想一直做朋友的話，好吧這對于我應該算是最難的選擇了...大概以后每次和你聊天就只能憑借理性去說話了吧，不能靠的太近，也不能離的太遠
靠的太近會偷偷想念，
離的太遠會慢慢失去聯系..
然而關鍵是，
我不知道你到底是怎么想的...
更關鍵的是，
我覺得甚至你自己也不知道你自己怎么想的...
最最關鍵的是,
即便你現在真的真的想清楚了，我不知道，我還可不可以相信你了...
我害怕再失望了 ...
我害怕你再反悔了...
大二的我，可以躲在角落里哭，可以喝酒通宵，可以昏天黑地，然后決定和她老死不相往來，然后重新開始，像沒受過傷一樣；
而現在，我失眠了，我絕望了，第二天還是要繼續工作，笑著和別人相處，還要生活，我知道，越往后，我越沒有機會，再去迎接失望了...
何況，這是我在乎的人讓我感到的失望...
何況，這是關于本來可以相信一生的東西的失望...
我不想再分手了....不想再對一個，對未來沒有信心的人，去耗盡我所有的精力了...我累了..我真的累了....
我膽怯了，我害怕了...喜歡一個人的成本太高了...何況，還是毫無保留地把自己所有的一切都交到另一個人手上..
然后卻要患得患失的忍受所有失去的風險...還不一定有回報...
兩個人在一起很簡單，相互喜歡就好，
但是分開，要耗費多少精力呢？...
花了大把的時間和精力去了解習慣一個人
最后卻還是要分開，
真的很累...我好不容易從上一段感情活過來，
不想再送死了...
有人說，愛情是屬于那些即使灰心失望，卻仍繼續期待的人...是屬于那些被欺騙出賣，卻仍堅信美好的人；是屬于那些縱然傷痕累列，卻仍然渴求愛的人；
我還是會繼續期待啊...
只是，我還能相信些什么呢？....
我不想再分手了...
我不用你有多完美，我只希望我們能永遠不分開..
附上最近特別喜歡的一個歌手的一首最喜歡的翻唱：
Sam Tsui:
I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
Achilles and his gold
Hercules and his gifts
Spiderman's control
And Batman with his fists
And clearly I don't see myself upon that list
But she said, where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can kiss
I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
I want something just like this
I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
The testaments they told
The moon and its eclipse
And Superman unrolls
A suit before he lifts
But I'm not the kind of person that it fits
She said, where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can miss
I want something just like this
I want something just like this
I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Oh, I want something just like this
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Doo-doo-doo, doo-doo-doo
Where'd you wanna go?
How much you wanna risk?
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can kiss
I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
Oh, I want something just like this
