周末看了一部劇叫「我是月亮」,因為不想破壞觀看的樂趣,提前沒有去看任何的評論和解構。直到第不知道幾幕里一場超市里的獨白才知道月亮代表的含義,這一幕是全劇為數不多的情緒上的爆發——也可能是唯一的。回來之后對那一幕還是忘不掉,于是去找了劇本來看了看(網上只能找到英文原版)。
There was only one time I didn't like supermarket very much.
Once I stood in front of the fruit. A young mother was shopping with her daughter. A sweet sweet little girl, like I used to be. They searched for long time and picked three perfect apples. As they were about to leave, the little girl shook her mother's arm and one apple dropped. It hit the ground. It was so fresh and juicy, that immediately a bruise appeared on the surface, like rot. They put it back and chose another. The apple lay there. I could hear it screaming. From then on it wasn't good anymore. The wound would make it rot faster. No one would choose it. Even if they pick it up, after one look, they would put it down. In the end, all its pals were sold. They added a new pile of apples. It stayed on the bottom, in the darkness, until one day no one could stand the smell.
背景
編劇是中國人,在美國讀碩士時寫的話劇,所以原版是英文,但有很多亞洲元素。如第一個正式出場的是亞裔,嫦娥奔月的故事。
劇情
開頭是一個主持人直播采訪一個宇航員搭乘飛船去月亮的聲音,宇航員始終沒有出場,一直是在語音里。這個采訪穿插在整個演出的過程中,其意義直到最后才揭曉。
一個40歲的中年人事業成功,天天西裝革履,卻因為過于迷戀某著名AV女優,無法和真實世界里的女孩交往,并且一直為之苦惱;一個因為某種骨病導致身體發育停止,不斷發胖的女學生Angela,發胖導致她找不到男朋友,只能在自己認為墮落的生活中繼續墮落;一個帥氣的同性戀青年流行歌手Justin,魅力無限,卻陷在自己畸形的戀愛中無法自拔,又要向觀眾隱藏的痛苦之中;一個水果店女老板Mei,富足的生活美滿的家庭,因為年輕時對一個騷擾自己的教授的傷害耿耿于懷;Mei的丈夫Jimmy因為自己天生的近視眼而曾經自卑不已。Jimmy的兒子遺傳了他的近視,看到的月亮總是模模糊糊地一團黃色圓球,成了億萬富翁,因為兒時父親講的關于嫦娥的故事而成為宇航員,要親自飛去月亮看一看。
關聯
作者的表達方式不是正常的敘述,人物之間故事比較獨立,同時也存在著一些關聯。
中年男人因為沒裝窗簾被Angela偷窺,兩人偶爾在電梯相遇,卻不曾真正認識;Angela被Justin偶然的無情戲弄;中年男人和Jimmy是兒時的玩伴,并且都把飯島愛作為女神,卻不怎么聯系;Jimmy和Mei是夫妻,Jimmy是宇航員的父親。但是這種聯系是微弱的偶然的,也是和他們自身的情感沖突不相關的。這一點設定很好,這不才是生活中正常的大多數嗎?
傷痕
作品都是要表達觀點的,但如果全是觀點,卻是打動不了觀眾的。「我是月亮」要討論的是最重要的事情,人生的意義——或者說,充滿傷痕的人生是不是還有意義。但它從小處著手,靜靜地講述幾段普通人的故事,讓觀眾自己去理解。
劇中有5個主人公,他們身上都存在著各種各樣的問題,經受著這些傷痕的折磨,他們的人生好像應該都是悲傷的。但編劇和導演都似乎在刻意地淡化這種悲傷的情緒,看著好像有一種「我感到人物身上的悲傷,我也很想感受到這種悲傷,但就是悲傷不起來」,但是演員情緒的釋放總是恰到好處,整個劇看下來,情緒的高潮好像始終沒有到來,但卻是回味無窮。
同時,5個主人公也都找到了自己內心的平和。
好像要表達的是,即使你滿含傷痕,你也可以很好的活著,過好這一生,不論是選擇逃避,或者選擇面對。
月亮
就像爛掉的蘋果,就像坑坑洼洼的月亮,每個人都有自己的傷痕,但每個人都可以獲得快樂。
看到一半時,感到的是滿滿的孤獨感,蔓延在角色身上,蔓延在自己身上,到了結尾,還是一樣的孤獨,但同時也多了一份釋然。就像結尾處宇航員說的那段話,帶出了月亮的隱喻,雖然自己的愿望落空——或者本來就知道會落空——但卻也很滿足。
I've never seen so many wounds in my life. And I just made a new one. I touch them, as if that could heal them up. If you realize that each crater came from a crash, you would feel pain every time you look at the sky. Maybe a long time ago this was heaven, before all the wounds.
I didn't find the moon lady. But my eyesight isn't that good. So who knows what I might have missed. Anyway, when she sees the crater my rocket made, she will know I've visited and she isn't all alone. That would make my trip worthwhile.
I'm looking at you now. I wish I could share the view with you – such a beautiful blue planet. I'm beginning to miss it. I'm looking at all of you. My eyesight isn't that good, but I just know you are there. I'm waving at you. Hey, can you see? I'm waving at you. Can you see?