2018年6月15日，星期六，二十歲的第54天，最后一堂夏老師的英語課。

人生的長鏈，無論是金鑄的，還是鐵打的，無論是荊棘編成的，還是鮮花穿起來的，都是自己在特別的某一天動手去制作了第一環，否則你也不會過上這樣的一生?！闋査埂さ腋?/p>

或許今天是這特別的一天，或許第一次上lulu姐課的那天才是，無論如何，夏老師用她的睿智、用她對美的感知與傳達，觸動我到心底層。

最后一次聽她讀詩，Charlie Chaplin的As I began to love myself，她期望著我們能成為這樣的人吧，跟隨著“初心”，愛自己。我最愛的是“wisdom of heart”那句，“As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection WISDOM OF THE HEART.“ 我常常自認悲觀，也自以為通透，揣測人性不端，這可句話讓我覺得，我的思想應該有溫度，有溫度的思想才會有分量。

還記得lulu姐帶我們去欣賞建筑文化的歲月變遷、去了解希臘神話故事中的起伏轉折，還有一點點分析形形色色的邏輯謬誤，當然還有她在講述這些的過程中，閃爍的光彩、堅定目光和曼妙微笑。

lulu姐帶我們閱讀了許多詩篇，分析了不少大家智慧，試圖去影響我們內心對幸福、對寬容、對邏輯、對美、對種種事物的理解，她也身體力行，告訴我們該以怎樣的態度面對生活的紛紛擾擾，當我們安慰照顧生病的兒子同時又忙于工作時的她時，她的回應是“不辛苦，常態而已，所以大家珍惜啊，你們現在已是最好的時光”。像大炮前段時間跟我說的，“人應該一邊奔跑一邊找尋自己真正想要的”。積極面對生活紛擾，然后發現自己熱愛的事物。要在感知和適應這個世界的過程中感受到快樂，在對自然和藝術的體察中獲得幸福。

衷心希望夏老師一切都好！

AS I BEGAN TO LOVE MYSELF

CHARLIE CHAPLIN ON HIS 70TH BIRTHDAY

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth.Today, I know, this is AUTHENTICITY.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it RESPECT.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it MATURITY.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm. Today I call it SELF-CONFIDENCE.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it SIMPLICITY.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism. Today I know it is LOVE OF ONESELF.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is MODESTY.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where everything is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it FULFILLMENT.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection WISDOM OF THE HEART.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS “LIFE“!