Maybe 21st is just a hot day for diaries.

I received my first film roll in my whole life, waited so late that I missed the ticketing time of a concert.

My teacher, professor of this class, used 'ambitious' to describe my film. I said yeah.

It stroked me strongly when I realized that film is really a language, although I have always believed that, but it seemed extremely sensible when I am learning 3 languages at the same time-Korean, Japanese, and film.

I knew I had talent in language learning since young but I never took it seriously. While others were stuck in vocabulary I was so so into grammar. Grammar is?elegancy. I want to learn all grammar in the first place. It's beauty, it's order, it's all language is about - how to express correctly.

I always knew what I like to do first and what I think important in language learning and it feels strange when I discovered today that I had kept my long time habit in film learning.

Eager for the grammar, for how to express, to talk in the right way and exploring my own language level right now.

If I never came here, will my first film be very different from now?

I guess I would never have a first film.

Although I don't know whether one's habit in language learning will directly tell what a person is, I do feel that the study style has much more impact on me than I have ever estimated. Maybe on other cases no but on me, I guess it's showing something deep, however, I don't know what it is yet.

It was pretty easy to see that I was the one who concentrated most on the film grammar while my Korean classmates were mostly using bricks, shots, sometimes very beautiful, to build up their films. My bricks, words, are much easier and weak in comparison.?

There is still much to explore in film and in myself.