今天有一門課可我決定不去了,為什么呢因為老子星期一開始就沒去何必今天才一門課,不過我平時幾乎都要去上課的無論有沒有存在感,有沒有聽懂課我還一直堅持去上課的,不過這星期被詛咒了一樣就是不想去上課,心里有什么東西吃著我,想把它扔出去,不知道理由是什么坐立不安,情緒超低落。其實情緒好情況也有,不過那天晚上特別失望,因為不知這么的特別開心,想跳舞可家里有爸,外面跳可不行(沒錢去酒吧,有錢早就去了),想聊天,想逗人,可從早到晚除了我家里的貓沒人跟我聊。所以情緒好對我來說那天會是失望的一天。回到現在今天跟我爸說上課然后在外面找個安靜的角落。。。。。。。發呆吧估計。
其實寫日記這東西我一直以來都是女孩干的事,而且從來沒寫過心里話,跟別提說過了。我覺得這樣寫對我的中文也有一定的幫助而且還減少壓力(我是這么想的),想把我的內心世界表達出來,發泄的一種吧,因為我非常喜歡聽姆爺的歌,某種程度來說我們倆很都恨這世界,雖然我的條件好很多但我就很這世界,聽他歌爽的不行,歌詞感覺簡直替我說的話一樣,可惜我的母語不是英文但基礎還是有的,他這種發泄方式太有效率了,下面我跟大家介紹我覺得跟我內心最相似的一首姆爺的歌Legacy
[Intro]
Tell me where to go, tell me what to do
告訴我該怎么辦,告訴我該怎么做
I'll be right there for you
我一直在等你指引我
Tell me what to say, don't matter if it'strue
告訴我該說什么,無論真假對錯
I'll say it all for you
我都會為你而說
[Verse 1: Eminem]
I used to be the type of kid that, wouldalways think the sky isfalling
我曾經是一個惶惶不可終日的孩子
Why am I so differently wired? Am I amartian?
為何我的大腦如此奇怪得亢奮,難道我是個火星人?
What kind of twisted experiment am Iinvolved in
我究竟處于什么變態的實驗中?
Cuz I don't belong in this world
我不屬于這個世界吧!
That's why I'm scoffing at authority,defying (defiant?) often
這就是為何我總是嘲諷并蔑視當局者
Flying off cuz they handling my mom, no dad
我沒有父親,我離家而去因為我看到他們在和我母親發生關系
So I'm non-compliant at home, at school I'mjust shy andawkward
在家里我很叛逆,但在學校我很膽怯尷尬不會交際
And no I don't need no goddamn psychologist
我不需要什么心理醫生
Tryna diagnose why I have all theseunderlying problems
來診斷為何我有這些潛在的問題
Thinking he can tryna solve them
他自以為能解決這些問題?
I'm outside chalking up drawings on thesidewalk
在外面時,我走在路邊在墻上信手涂鴉
And in the front drive talking to myself
在駕駛座上自言自語
Either that or inside hiding off in thecorner somewhere quiet
又或者是在家的時候把自己隔絕在某個寂靜的角落
Trying not to be noticed cause I'm cryingand sobbing
試圖不被他人注意,因為我在抽泣
I had a bad day at school so I ain'ttalking
因為今天我在學校過的真操蛋,我現在一點也不想說話
Some cocksucker shoved me into a fuckinglocker because he said thatI eyeballed him
有個傻逼就因為我盯著他看,他就把我塞進一個柜子里
[Bridge]
And if you fall, I’ll get you there
如果你跌倒失敗,我會在那里守護你
I'll be your savior from all the wars thatare fought inside yourworld
我會把你從你內心的掙扎中全部拯救出來
Please have faith in my words
請相信我
Cause this is my legacy, legacy
因為這是我為你(們)留下的遺產
This is my legacy, legacy
這是我的遺產
There's no guarantee, it's not up to me,you can only see
我不能保證,也不能由我決定,你只能看到
This is my legacy, legacy
這是我的遺產
[Verse 2: Eminem]
I used to be the type of kid that, wouldalways think the sky isfalling
我曾經是一個惶惶不可終日的孩子
Why am I so differently wired in my noggin?
為什么我的大腦如此不同他人得神經過敏?
'Cuz sporadic as my thoughts come, it'smind boggling
我的腦中總是零星地閃過一絲靈感,那種感覺難以置信
'Cuz I obsess on everything in my mind
我對腦中的所有的事物都很著迷
it's small shit bothers me
平時也只有些小事煩惱著我
but now my father, he said Sayonara, thensplit
可現在我的父親說了句再見就離開了我們
But I don't give a shit I'm fine as long as
但我TM一點都不在意
There's batteries in my Walkman nothing isthe matter with me
只要我隨聲聽里的電池還有電,我就什么都不在意
Shit look at the bright side at least Iain't walking
起碼往TM好的方面看看吧,我有自行車,不用走路
I bike ride through the neighborhood of myapartment
我騎著車經過鄰居家
Complex on a ten speed which I've acquiredparts that I
Found in the garbage, a frame and put tireson it
其實也就是一輛只能開十碼的組裝車,我從垃圾堆里翻出來部件,找了個框架把輪胎裝上去就完了
Headphones on straight ahead and kids tryto start shit
我帶著耳機自顧自地騎著,而看見我的孩子又要開始嘲笑我
But if this all there is for me life offers
如果這是生活能賜予我的全部
Why bother even tryna put up a fight, it'snonsense
我為何還要去挑起和別人毫無意義的爭斗?
But I think a lightbulb just lit up in myconscience
但我發現腦海中出現了一盞明燈
What about those rhymes I've been jottin'
我想起了那些隨手記下的詞句
They are kinda givin’ me confidence
他們多少可以給我點自信
Instead of tryna escape through my comics,
與其努力掙脫我這喜劇般的人生
Why don't I just blast a little somethinglike Onyx
為何不像Onyx組合一樣唱點什么?
To put me in the mood to wanna fight andwrite songs that
點燃我的情緒,讓我想要抵抗
Say what I wanna say to the kid that saidthat I eyeballed him
把我想要對那些“說我打量他們的人”說的話,全部寫在歌里
Grab hold of my balls like that's right,fight's on bitch
我要挺直胸膛表現的無比兇悍:“沒錯,傻逼,老子就要跟你斗!”
Who would've knew from the moment I turnedthe mic on
誰會想到從我拿起麥克風的那一刻起我會變成一個偶像
I could be iconic, and my conquest is
word to Phife Dawg from a Tribe CalledQuest
而我的戰利品就是能和A Tribe Called Quest成員Phife Dawg平起平坐
[Bridge]
[Verse 3: Eminem]
I used to be the type of kid that, wouldalways think the sky isfalling
我曾經是一個惶惶不可終日的孩子
Now I think the fact that I'm differentlywired's awesome
但現在看來,我如此奇怪的亢奮,對我來說簡直太棒了
Cause if I wasn't I wouldn't be able towork
因為倘若我不是那樣怪異,我就無法寫出像這樣絕妙的詞句
Words like this and connect lines likecrosswords
我就無法像字謎一樣連行串句
And use my enemy's words as strength
我就無法把敵人的話語化作自己的力量
To try and draw from, and get inspired offem
從他們的話中汲取靈感
Cause all my life I was told and taught Iam not shit
By you wack fucking giant sacks of lyingdog shit
我活到現在,你們這些傻逼狗蛋一直在看不起我,但相反這讓我明白了我并不是垃圾
Now you shut up bitch I am talking
現在傻逼們你們可以閉嘴了,輪到我說話了
Thought I was full of horseshit and now
你們不是看不起我么?
You fucking worship the ground in which Iam walking
現在你們都在跪舔我腳下的地!
Me against the world so what? I'm BrianDawkins
全世界與我為敵又如何?我就像Brian Dawkins一樣強大
Versus the whole 0 and 16 Lions offense
一個人足以獨自面對0勝16負的雄獅隊的脆弱防線(形容對手太對)
So bring on the Giants Falcons and MiamiDolphins
讓巨人隊、亞特蘭大老鷹隊還有邁阿密海豚隊一起上好了!
It's the body bag game bitch I'm supplyingcoffins
這幾乎是一場你死我活的肉搏戰,但我為你們準備好了棺材!
(body bag game:A particular game, in any sport, in which there is aunusually largeamount of injuries or physical play. It is derivedfrom a Monday Night Footballgame between the Philadelphia Eaglesand the Washington Redskins in which morethan 10 Redskin playerswere injured by Eagle players.)
Cause you dicks, butt kiss, a bunch ofBrian Baldingers
因為你們這些弱雞,就是一幫只會放屁的評論員
You gon die a ball licker I've beendiabolical
你的下場就是作為一個傻逼死去
With this dialogue since 99 Rawkus
但自從99年在Rawkus的合集專輯上露臉,我便已掌握惡魔之力
(轉:Eminem在Rawkus唱片公司的合集Soundbombing Volume 2和Missy "Misdemeanor"Elliott的專輯Da Real World頻頻亮相)
You don't respect the legacy I leave behindy'all can
你們若是不尊重我留下的遺產,你們就去舔吊吧!
Suck a dick The day you beat me pigs'll flyout my ass
and a flying saucer full of Italian sausage
要是有一天你能打敗我,我的菊花能飛出豬來,還能飛出一個裝滿意大利香腸的飛碟!
The most high exalting and I ain't halting
而最讓我激動的時刻到來時我不會猶豫
Till I die of exhaustion inhale my exhaustfumes
到我累死的那一天,傻吊快吸入我燃燒后的煙!
The best part about me is I am not you
老子最棒的地方,就是老子沒有成為你
I am me I'm a fire marshall and this is my
老子就是老子,老子就是吊炸天的Marshall Mathers
[Hook]