Chapter 7: Fufi
Thought
That experience shaped what I've felt about relationships for the rest of my life: You do not own the thing that you love
? ? ? “這是我的房子，這是我的車子，這是我的財產……這個那個也是我的。”我的。我們擁有太多而害怕失去，害怕失去便有了負擔束縛，也不再真正享受。
? ? ? ? "I wasn't exactly devastated about the cats " 第一只寵物貓的慘死，Trevor并未十分悲傷，因與其相處不長感情不深，換而言之，自己并未覺得這只貓屬于自己，沒有占有就算真的失去了也未有所感傷。Fufi，一只呆萌斑點狗，Trevor摯愛。可能出于狗之樂，Fufi白日不甘寂寞每日去其他人家中串門被別人收養，晚上回來。Trevor發現后，大哭大鬧十分傷心，還讓媽媽陪演“Fufi爭奪戰”，自覺"No one has ever betrayed me more than Fufi"。并未真正失去卻如此傷心，對Fufi感情愈深愈怕失去，便愈希望為己所有，也便產生所謂的Fufi的背叛。狗是狗，人是人，并不因為愛狗，它便屬于你。試想，如若Trevor未明白“我們所愛之物并不為自己所有”之理，他最后還能享受圈養Fufi的快樂嗎？
似聽蔣勛《細說紅樓夢》提及一段書評：“濠上之魚，莊、惠之所樂也，而漁父襲之以網罟；舞雩之木，孔、曾之所憩也，而樵者繼之以斤斧。若物非有形，心無所住，則雖殉財之夫，貴私之子，寧有對曹霸、韓干之馬，而計馳騁之樂，見畢宏、韋偃之松，而思棟梁之用，求好逑于雅典之偶，思稅駕于金字之塔者哉？”
? ? 佩服評論者的才華。細思，自己曾經鄙視見動物園滿池金魚，開屏孔雀議論是否味道鮮美，談及烹調之道的人。只知吃實用，不知欣賞低級趣味。可試想，假如自己對于生活中所愛之物十分執迷，想獨占而害怕失去，心有所住，又如何欣賞享受，不也如同樵夫漁者之輩嗎？不也是低級趣味嗎？豈不是五十步笑百步。自我打臉。
? ? ? ? 收所愛之物為己所有，個人認為是人之天性，無需在道德層面去貶低。只是當為己所有自己便被其所累而束縛，反而不利于自己更好的生活，所以不待見這種擁有?；蛟S，我們可以刻意練習另一種擁有，是在心靈上擁有，不在物欲上占有。不囿于藏所愛為己專有，不勞于事物執迷追逐，而是心無所住而欣賞其美享受其樂。
? ? ? ? 分享收藏過的一句話：所有娑婆世界的一切，都不是用來擁有的，而是用來舍的，一個人舍得下一切則是真正壯大，無牽無掛；一個人擁有一切正是沉淪苦痛的泉源
詞匯
I wasn't exactly devastated about the cats
feeling extremely shocked and sad:極為悲痛的
同義： upset, anguished, dismayed
例句：She was left feeling totally devastated.
仿寫：For her husband leaving, she didn't have any devastated feeling.
This woman's Maltese poodle had been impregnated by the bull terrier from next door, a strange mix.
impregnated 受孕，想說發現還有“充滿；灌注”
to make a substance spread completely through something, or to spreadcompletely through something:
?? impregnate with something
The mats have to be impregnated with disinfectant.
例句：The professor Dorsey is always impregnating his students with creative mind
It never occurred to us that she could actually scale a five-foot wall
scale v. (formal) to climb to the top of something very high and steep
例句：the first woman to scale the world?s five highest peaks
?? scale the heights 登頂，
例句：?(figurative) He has scaled the heights of his profession
后文出現：...upscale establishments
upscale
upscale something to make something better, bigger or more powerful
adj. 高檔的，高收入的；v.改善，升擋
例句：The pilot project will begin in three areas and then be upscaled to the entire state.
